i don’t know why i decided on saturday night that my season was over. i’m less than a minute from my big, big goal of 25:30 and i have one race left to accomplish it. my last race would have been it if i hadn’t given up mentally. i have the training, endurance, and speed that i need. i just need the mental toughness.
i usually perform the best when a deadline is hanging over my head. every year in high school i would run my best at conference so i could hit my goal. so this year is no different. the course may not be ideal, but i know it’s going to be fast. i just need to forget about inner-team competition and go at my race with focus. this goal, it isn’t for my team or my coach, it’s for me. it’s to prove to myself that i can run at a collegiate level and not be embarrassed. 25:30 is respectable on my team. and i need to get there to make everything i’ve done in the last 9 months worth it.